Well, I was just in the shower (which is where I do my best thinking), and I just couldn't get my mind off the fact that I may like my best friend. I just need to concretely see these reasons, writing them was my next rational option, because where my thoughts end, words always seem to begin.
1. He actually knows me. This is very important because usually guys get to know me well enough to get me to go out with them, or try to get me to sleep with them. (That's right boys, I'm on to you.)
2. He's really good-looking, within the first week of knowing him I remember telling my friend Jessie that "he has a face hand-crafted by the gods." Yeah, I know I'm a tad dramatic, but hey, he's super cute.
3. I know he would do anything in his power to help me if I needed him to.
4. He's a caring soul. When a teacher made me cry one day in class, I ran out of the room to go to the bathroom to cry in solitude; he came running after me.
5. I honestly don't think I could get tired of him, we just connect like that.
6. He's a mystery, I say this because, yes, I do know him very well, but he's quiet and introvert when it comes to his feelings. I can't tell if he likes me more than a friend or not, and usually I am a very good judge at that.
7. We can literally joke about everything, and boy do I mean EVERYTHING. We once joked about poop. I'm not kidding.
8. I'm very comfortable around him. It's not the situation where you know someone and you like them so in your mind you put them higher than yourself like "Wow, that person isn't half as gross as me, I bet they never have earwax or pimples". With us, we understand we're both human and we have bodily functions, like passing gas, pooping, earwax, zits, and all that gross stuff.
9. We find ways to touch each other, and not in the sexual way or anything, I just like to feel warmth. When we watch movies or do notes in the class we sit beside each other in, we always have our knees, legs, or feet touching. It's almost a security blanket.
10. He'd protect me in a heart beat. I know this because when the teacher made me cry in the situation mentioned in number 4, the teacher gave him and another student a project to work on outside the room so he could yell at me and my fellow "fuck-up" (I never cuss, that's a direct quote). When he asked me what was said he told me "That's why he made me and Jess leave, because he knows I'd say something about him yelling at you like that, it's not okay. He's knows I would have fought back."
I just don't even want to be anything serious with anyone else. Trust me, I've tried replacing him, but I haven't found a soul I favor as much as I favor his. It's not only his perfections I like; I like the things that he contradicts himself about. I like how when I don't know how to do something he doesn't treat me like an idiot, he explains, he reiterates, and helps me until I understand. His patience and acceptance are so appealing. The way his glasses perch on his face, the way he sniffs when he has a cold, just everything is so familiar and welcomed by me. There isn't anything I wouldn't accept about him because I understand he would always accept me. We may not have to be in constant communication to understand we're right there when the other is in need, I feel like that is an element I've never had in any of my other relationships. I feel like if things don't work out for us, we will always be friends. There's definite reserved spot in my heart for him.
1. He actually knows me. This is very important because usually guys get to know me well enough to get me to go out with them, or try to get me to sleep with them. (That's right boys, I'm on to you.)
2. He's really good-looking, within the first week of knowing him I remember telling my friend Jessie that "he has a face hand-crafted by the gods." Yeah, I know I'm a tad dramatic, but hey, he's super cute.
3. I know he would do anything in his power to help me if I needed him to.
4. He's a caring soul. When a teacher made me cry one day in class, I ran out of the room to go to the bathroom to cry in solitude; he came running after me.
5. I honestly don't think I could get tired of him, we just connect like that.
6. He's a mystery, I say this because, yes, I do know him very well, but he's quiet and introvert when it comes to his feelings. I can't tell if he likes me more than a friend or not, and usually I am a very good judge at that.
7. We can literally joke about everything, and boy do I mean EVERYTHING. We once joked about poop. I'm not kidding.
8. I'm very comfortable around him. It's not the situation where you know someone and you like them so in your mind you put them higher than yourself like "Wow, that person isn't half as gross as me, I bet they never have earwax or pimples". With us, we understand we're both human and we have bodily functions, like passing gas, pooping, earwax, zits, and all that gross stuff.
9. We find ways to touch each other, and not in the sexual way or anything, I just like to feel warmth. When we watch movies or do notes in the class we sit beside each other in, we always have our knees, legs, or feet touching. It's almost a security blanket.
10. He'd protect me in a heart beat. I know this because when the teacher made me cry in the situation mentioned in number 4, the teacher gave him and another student a project to work on outside the room so he could yell at me and my fellow "fuck-up" (I never cuss, that's a direct quote). When he asked me what was said he told me "That's why he made me and Jess leave, because he knows I'd say something about him yelling at you like that, it's not okay. He's knows I would have fought back."
I just don't even want to be anything serious with anyone else. Trust me, I've tried replacing him, but I haven't found a soul I favor as much as I favor his. It's not only his perfections I like; I like the things that he contradicts himself about. I like how when I don't know how to do something he doesn't treat me like an idiot, he explains, he reiterates, and helps me until I understand. His patience and acceptance are so appealing. The way his glasses perch on his face, the way he sniffs when he has a cold, just everything is so familiar and welcomed by me. There isn't anything I wouldn't accept about him because I understand he would always accept me. We may not have to be in constant communication to understand we're right there when the other is in need, I feel like that is an element I've never had in any of my other relationships. I feel like if things don't work out for us, we will always be friends. There's definite reserved spot in my heart for him.
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